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(this journal entry has some-if not a lot- of cursing)
I don't even know how to start this journal entry and as I have mentioned previously, if anything is to happen to me, PLEASE share this account's journal entries to the people I knew.
anyway
I'm depressed... and drinking. Can't get drunk though.
Aaanyways (get used to me saying that)
My gf left me. I made a drawing about it (seems like most my journal entries have a drawing related to 'em)
Fuck me and my feelings. AGH, the memories. We were going to have our 2nd anniversary october 12. I even had stuff prepared for it. She wants her t-shirt back (I had one to smell it and remember of her-not in a creepy way, in a cute way, she had mine too).
There's not much to say about it but it feels like there's so much to talk about it. Probably because it was a big deal for me.
I know now I'm free and I can do whatever and stuff. But I had feelings for her... consequently. So I just feel like shit all the time and that's pretty much it
THE GOOD NEWS (which was good enough to cheer me up for a whole day and now it has me excited about it) is that I will MOST LIKELY travel to Ireland and stay there for a whole month. (I said most likely cause I still haven't paid the travel agency and stuff). And everytime something that seems too good to be true show up. They end up being too good to be true. And just... Vanishes from my life or whatever and creates another hole in my already broken heart. OH, SHIT! I should have drawn my heart with a crack all the way through it and with a band aid in the middle. fuck.
WELL. If that manages to happen I'm pretty sure I'll go there alone(cause I don't have friends with enough money and shit)
And yea. I have many books to read, but instead I just spend my time on the internet because I'm a worthless piece of shit.
Also, Halloween. Once again I just may spend it at home doing absolutely nothing with something on my face because I like costumes and in this nicolas cage forsaken country there's almost no places you can dress up as anything (except anime conventions-which suck nowadays. I swear.-). Speaking of which, I went to a small village(somewhere in august I believe) which is conserved and has train tracks, wooden houses and it has A LOT of fog... it was a steampunk convention for a whole weekend. It was nice, there wasn't much to do and I felt alone.
I think that's it.

~bye

[EDIT]I had to edit the title because my last entry had the same title, wtf! I have no creativity [/EDIT]
  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: Monstercat Podcast Ep. 30
  • Drinking: beer
Covered in darkness by DarkMatt94
Covered in darkness
this one I don't even care about putting on my signature, fucking... whatever man.
that one big hole is because my gf left me (we were going to have our 2nd anniversary october 12) the three ones with another one close to them is those three friends I met on DeviantArt who also stopped talking to me for no reason, one is dedicated to my grandfather who died this year and the other one because fuck me
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Cyber escape by DarkMatt94
Cyber escape
Felt like doing something like this while listening to the Monstercat Podcast!
Also felt like making a painting rather then a drawing
Also, those category examples always make me feel like my drawings suck... a lot. So then I just go to the home page and everything's fine
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Matheus Rodrigues
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Brazil
I like playing video games and drawing, I love drawing, and I decided to create a DeviantArt to share my drawings pictures and stuff :D
Give me a Llama (:iconllama3dplz:) and you'll get another back! They are free, you know?
favorite game of all time: :iconkingdomheartsplz:
as I played the many games the Kingdom Hearts series came out. I had a lot of favorite characters... right now is Axel.
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(this journal entry has some-if not a lot- of cursing)
I don't even know how to start this journal entry and as I have mentioned previously, if anything is to happen to me, PLEASE share this account's journal entries to the people I knew.
anyway
I'm depressed... and drinking. Can't get drunk though.
Aaanyways (get used to me saying that)
My gf left me. I made a drawing about it (seems like most my journal entries have a drawing related to 'em)
Fuck me and my feelings. AGH, the memories. We were going to have our 2nd anniversary october 12. I even had stuff prepared for it. She wants her t-shirt back (I had one to smell it and remember of her-not in a creepy way, in a cute way, she had mine too).
There's not much to say about it but it feels like there's so much to talk about it. Probably because it was a big deal for me.
I know now I'm free and I can do whatever and stuff. But I had feelings for her... consequently. So I just feel like shit all the time and that's pretty much it
THE GOOD NEWS (which was good enough to cheer me up for a whole day and now it has me excited about it) is that I will MOST LIKELY travel to Ireland and stay there for a whole month. (I said most likely cause I still haven't paid the travel agency and stuff). And everytime something that seems too good to be true show up. They end up being too good to be true. And just... Vanishes from my life or whatever and creates another hole in my already broken heart. OH, SHIT! I should have drawn my heart with a crack all the way through it and with a band aid in the middle. fuck.
WELL. If that manages to happen I'm pretty sure I'll go there alone(cause I don't have friends with enough money and shit)
And yea. I have many books to read, but instead I just spend my time on the internet because I'm a worthless piece of shit.
Also, Halloween. Once again I just may spend it at home doing absolutely nothing with something on my face because I like costumes and in this nicolas cage forsaken country there's almost no places you can dress up as anything (except anime conventions-which suck nowadays. I swear.-). Speaking of which, I went to a small village(somewhere in august I believe) which is conserved and has train tracks, wooden houses and it has A LOT of fog... it was a steampunk convention for a whole weekend. It was nice, there wasn't much to do and I felt alone.
I think that's it.

~bye

[EDIT]I had to edit the title because my last entry had the same title, wtf! I have no creativity [/EDIT]
  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: Monstercat Podcast Ep. 30
  • Drinking: beer

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isywood Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Student Filmographer
Thanks for faving ;)
Eddsworld Fanart Frame by isywood
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DarkMatt94 Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome, that was a really swell drawing of Edd
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isywood Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Student Filmographer
Thank you haha :D
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DzidziaMK Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014
Thank You for the Fav
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DarkMatt94 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome
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MezzoKoA Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the fav on Balloon Hat.
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DarkMatt94 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! Loved the effect!
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MezzoKoA Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:)
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isabelle96 Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for the favorite XD
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DarkMatt94 Featured By Owner May 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
you're welcome! Awesome painting o/
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