Unhappy happiness

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So, no one still looks at this I'm sure (the same way no one ever did, but it's all here just in case I die one day)
BUT, I iz sadnes. AGAIN!111!1
Which is why I'm writing this thingy here, as usual.
So, not sure how went the last update neither when, but here's the deal: I love here, she says she loves me (one can never be too sure). So why am I sad? SHIT HAPPENS THAT'S WHY
Nothing big happened, but she doesn't correspond the love I give her, but she says she loves me. But I love her and I at least demonstrate it. People say (and I just might be) exaggerating, but I'm dead sure I'm not! I mean, I put her on top of every single priority. Here's the deal:
She lives in a different city so we barely get to see each other, so this weekend she said she would come to my city, BUT all of the sudden she says she's coming, and it is because of some dude she knows since she was a kid, and she's coming to see him because they're going to take professional pictures of nude people..... what. And then instead of deciding to come and stay at my place at night because she loves me, no, she wanted to stay at my place because she wanted a place to stay and that's it. Also instead of spending some time with me she's going to play some online games with her friends, who will go to her mother's house (which is in my city) and take their computers there. COME ON! SERIOUSLY? NOT TO MENTION she seems to avoid playing online games with me! Once we decided we would play an online game together, back then I was buying a new computer so I told her to wait. Instead she started playing without me and when I finally got the computer she completely stopped playing! A few days later she tells me her father's playing an online game, but it turns out it's her character with her nickname and shit, so I started playing that game to play with her. Guess what happened next. Just guess. She never again played that game. Now she's playing ANOTHER one with her friends (not me, her friends). But my biggest problem with these friends is that she never stops talking about them and she always take the opportunity to see them instead of me. You know. Her boyfriend.
So tell me, am I really exaggerating?

Also since I'm sad I wrote this on facebook:

What is life but fake temporary emotions created by some organic shit your body(a fragile meat sack with bones) generates out of evolutionary instincts? Emotions such as joy and happiness, which will eventually lead to sorrow and sadness, thus hurting you. Hurting you mentally and, soon after, physically. Each time you feel that awful inevitable set of emotions, you'll have a new mental scar that will cause you pain until the end of your miserable existence. So what's the point of living if you're just going to keep on suffering? Isn't it better to just quit it? Once and for all?
Waking up and not wanting to get out of bed because you know you'll have to deal with life. Life problems. Problems which you only have to endure because you're alive. Problems that you know you'll have to deal with for the time you're awake. Problems that won't go away no matter what, and if you do get rid of one, it seems that your action triggered a thousand more tougher problems.
Sure, if you're the adventurer kind of person then you do have a reason to live, to keep fighting off these daily annoyances. Well, do I have some news for you: Not everyone is like you. Some people don't see the point of it all. And don't you dare come to me with that "some people have tougher problems than you" bullshit, because sure, countless people DO have bigger issues, but they're not me and I'm not them and neither will help each other.
If you've been reading this up to this point, thank you.
To some people, such as myself and others I know, we have to deal with everyday problems in a tougher way because our brains, for some fucked up reason, simply makes us feel at our worst with the smallest of problems. I'm not making this up. None of it.
Go live your life happily just the way you were, I'm just expressing my feelings here in this facebook post that no one will read. Have a good night. 
Cheers

-Matt

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